gone are those days...

gone are the days
when,

a smile could make our day
a baby could make us smile
a star could make us dream
a touch could make us warm
a raindrop could make us cool
a breeze could make us calm
a letter could make us happy
a vision could make us aspire
a pinch of love could make our life...


gone are the days
when,

the sunbeams meant warmth
the darkness made us feel safe
the placid lakes epitomed beauty
the fragrance of y'days spread on
the moments of past felt bittersweet
the homemade food spread love
the little crushes made us blush
the timeless memories filled us fresh
the little deeds showed fondness...


gone are the trivial elements
of once,
a life unmarred by violent throes
of today,


gone are those days...
...gone are those days
yet my soul longs for it all...
...just this once more

...a web...

lofty are my thoughts,
unsteady, my gait.
i feel myself slip away,
again, a false beat.
time seems to chain me,
my thoughts.
steps faltering,i sway,
against the breeze.
assumptions fade away
as reality strikes.
voices smooth and soft
caressing my senses.
i slip into a silken dream
waiting to be awaken,
into a new dream,
woven in magic.
alas!its invisible threads,
and me,bound...

cartwheel spins,shedding seconds
a pace,faster than any race.
i lay still,awaiting doom
but comes to me,a joy
unfathomed a pleasure,
my heart skips a beat
cool mist wet my eyes
and a smile breaks in,
after a while...

the images seem so bizarre
foggy,vision at a blurr
a kaleidoscope runs
and i find myself
holding on,
to threads a many,
running here,
and running there,
invisible links,
connecting my thoughts,
weaving a web,
a mesh,
of the wonders,
of life....

and still newer threads,
arising from the deep,
a new direction,
a new step,
i quiver,
in fear is it?
or is it anticipation,
of the unknown?
i wonder...

a secret buried...

eyes that spit fire
reflecting hatred
in a purest sense
brooding disgust
i longed to find in you.

i look at you tonight
hoping,praying hard
for a look of anger,despise
and plead one last a chance
a note of forgiveness,but none...

i have hurt;broken your trust
shook the entire world
beneath your feet,
unknown even to you;
and i now feel all the regret.

"he" came to me
as a puerile soul
peals of laughter
symphony of care
fun and frolic as never.

i felt carried away
in "his" musk of power
the titillating gazes
notes of love,anew
i felt myself waver,away.

eachtime i held your gaze
i felt a stab of pain run
through myself,lynching
everynote of loving care
made me flinch,i felt corrupt.

tonight,as i lay back
pondering on my emotions
i realise it hard and true
a new face,a momentary joy
a passing infatuation-"him".

you,have taught me love
the myriad emotions true
the hymn of euphony shared
the touch of love,in you
i find all hues and shades,of me.

wish i could wipe away
those few days i strayed
emotions fill me tonight,
a sadness unfathomable
regret palpable all around.

wish i could tell you,i came back,
back to your arms where i belong
yet you'd never ever know it true
a dark secret i wouldnt ever share
a note i long to bury,deep down,in me-"him"!!!